SURABAYA 13 January 2016: Confused

Well, this is my officially first post using English. Now I'm in a great doubtfull. I don't know what to do, and I can't make a decision. Here is the problem, places where I work now (let's called it Department of Energy and Mineral Resources) offered me to become civil officer. Is not that a good thing? I'm just sit down, working my routine job with the status of contract workers and suddenly they offered me to become a permanent employee with various allowances. While other people have to contend with all sorts of tests and preparation to become a civil officer, I was offered free of charge. I just need to decide whether I want to or not. And they need my decision as soon as possible.

But, why I'm confused?

It is because, when I became a civil officer, it is make sure that I have to serve my country in the same place until I retire someday, maybe till 56 or 58. Can I make that commitment? I realized, salary is a major consideration. If I take this chance, I'll get salary around 6 million rupiah/month,  with addition of some allowances and fieldtrip money, total of my salary will be more than 7 million rupiah/month

BUT, the problem is TIME.

 Is my leave time will give me the freedom of traveling around the world? Something I dreamed. I hope that once in my life I had an unforgettable experience that I will always remember forever.

Beside, I want to try Working Holiday Program in Australia before my age stepping 30 years. I want to experience a different life and adventure. I'm a person who likes to move, I like this and that. Whether to become a civil officer I can meet it all?

God help me, give me a clue. My life just once, and I did not know until what age. I want to have a life with unforgettable adventure. I want to go to Hawaii, New Zealand. United States mainland, Japan, Russia, can I?

Should I refuse? Or should I accept the offer?

I still don't have the answer. While they waited for my decision tomorrow Monday (January 18, 2016). Today is Thursday, January 14, 2016. Means, I have 4 days to make this big decision that will affect my life forever.

I leave everything to God, I have a faith, he has a wonderful plan for my life.